A lil bit more 'bout me...

Ten things I wish I could say to 10 different people.

1. I forgive you. That doesn’t mean I like you.
2. Why me?

3. I wish you would stand up for yourself.

4. I know I’m a better mom than you were.

5. I’ve givin up looking for you.

6. I’ve never felt more loved!

7. You taught me how to be happy with myself.

8. You underestimated me.

9. I’m more thankful than you can imagine!

10. You were right.

Nine random things:

1. I experience deja vu a lot. It’s kinda creepy.
2. I sleep waay to hard.

3. I have a theory, I MUST HAVE been adopted :)
4. Maybe I should not worry so much.

5. Cooking for my friends and family is like therapy to me.

6. I sleep walk.7. I’m out of shape.

8. I have a scar and I have no idea how I got it.

9. I wonder if people talk down to me cause I’m short or I’m short so they talk down to me.

Eight ways to win my heart:

1. Crack me up.

2. Play with my hair.
3. Keep your promises.

4. Random acts of selflessness.

5. Talk to me.

6. Write me a letter.

7. Protect me.

8. Love me as much as I love you.

Seven things I've been thinking about:

1. Laundry...silly but true.

2. Chesney’s growing up so fast.

3. I wish Dallas lived with us all the time.

4. Lately, avacados.
5. Bills.

6. I need a new hobby.

7. Going for a drive.

Six things I wish I never had to do:

1. Clean the toilet.

2. Work for anyone else but myself.

3. Trap mice.

4. Worry about anything out of my control.

5. Ever see a clown again. Ever.

6. See my kids hurt or cry.

Five turn offs:

1. Back hair.

2. Ignorance.

3. Chauvanism.

4. Rudeness.

5. Someone who can’t laugh at themselves.

Four turn ons:

1. Challenge me.

2. Say/do those things that make me blush.
3. Working man hands.

4. Talk to me in a "tone"

Three wishes for my future:

1. Have my kids go to college and be successful and happy in whatever they choose to do.

2. Have lifetime passes to Bluegrass. (it doesn’t all have to be so serious ya know!)

3. Leave my mark, in just a small way.

Two things I want to do before I die:

1. Do something so spontaneous it makes people question my sanity.

2. Grow old with the people I love.

One possession I could not live without:

1. A cozy blanket. And all it has to offer.

Wordless Wednesday

For cryin' out loud

Anyone who REALLY knows me knows that I HATE crying. Period. Especially in front of anyone, it's utterly embarrassing for me. Not just a little but a whole lot. It's bigger than that even. But yes, sometimes I cry. And usually at the most inappropriate times. Since I so seldomly cry, if someone actually witnesses this oddity, they are befuddled. They don't know what to say or do or sometimes. Be assured you most likely had nothing to do with it, I rarely ever let someone "make" me cry.
Hell, I don't know what to do. Should I just let it all out or wipe away that burning hell off my cheek and move on like I never shed a tear? I cry for reasons known and unknown. I cry because I think, worry, need, care,and want, or I'm angry, happy, ecstatic, nervous, or rejuvenated. I cried last night. Why? All of the above. I cried and I didn't want to, it just pushed it's way right out. Why is it such a big deal for me to cry? People do it all the time. At a sad movie, a touching song, a fading memory. The birth of a child, a love lost or a love found. I don't really have a clue where the hell I'm going with this other than to just say, if you've seen me cry, it was real. I'm sorry if it made you uncomfortable, you mostly see me happy and "on". I cry... I'm overwhelmed... with a flood of emotion that I'm usually able to control and I just can't handle it like I would want to... it's found a way out. I just needed a release. And actually, if you are one of the very few that has seen me cry, you're lucky.... Because that means I love you.

I'm a list maker

This is what I LOVE about Autumn...

1. Candy Corn and salty peanuts...together. It's like a handful of Payday!

2. Layering my clothes like so...Cami, shirt, sweatshirt. So cozy.

3. Turning the air in my car OFF and rolling down the windows.

4. The leaves turning that gorgeous shade of burnt orange.

5. Wearing jeans and sweatshirts. I'll be honest. I own WAY more sweatshirts than is necessary for one person.

6. Hello, football season! (Not NFL...College and High School, please!)

7. The weather - crisp, cool mornings and highs in the 60s/70s.

8. Comfort foods like pot roast and stews. Side of fresh out of the oven cornbread. yum.

9. Tent camping. 'Nuff said.

Things I will not miss about the Summer...

1. The music on Top 40 radio. Jesse McCartney and Chris Brown can "Leave[in]" "Forever."

2. The sweat dripping down the middle of my back. (TMI?)

3. The end of the Baseball season. I'm so over the egos.

4. Seeing way too much skin on both sexes. Men should NOT wear cut off jean shorts.

5. Waiting for my 120 degree car to cool so I can breath while driving.

6. Is alfalfa season over yet? My allergies are killing me.

7. Shaving my legs. Every. Single. Day.

Now if Winter would just hold off, oh, permanently.

April 24, 2007

Another blast from blog past! Turns out this years party was even better! (How was that possible?!) And I'm still THE luckiest girl ever!!

April 24, 2007 - Tuesday
About last Saturday... Current mood: happy
Let me just start off by saying I'm THE luckiest girl ever!!
I have the most amazing group of friends and family. Well, My friends ARE my family! My 32nd would not have been the same without each and everyone of them.

The pics in my new slide show give you all a little glimpse into the nights festivities...there are some pics that WILL NOT EVER see the light of day! I'll just say I'm so happy you were all entertained!
I once thought that life after 30 would be boring, sad and not near as fun as my 20's. I was SOOOOOOOOO wrong!! While not taking anything away from the teens and 20's....I'm having a BLAST! I'm free of any inhibitors...I'm just me. I laugh louder and longer. I can make fun of myself and occasionally others! And I'm not hiding my laugh lines or the crow's feet that are slowly creeping in...I'm celebrating them!!
So, here's to 32!

You oughtta know...

I posted this blog a while back on myspace but I'm planning on moving all those (5 or 6) blogs here.



Some stuff about me:



1. Pepsi is my addiction. I should seek help.



2. I have to agree with my friend Laura...polish on my toes is a must.


3.Sugar Tits....is what my great granny gave me when I was sad to cheer me up. Still works.


4. I have a shoulder injury due to bowling at a State Bowling Tournament.


5. Phil Collins...wow. A drummer and a voice. Always gets me.


6. I wanted to be a Dallas Cowboys Cheerleader when I was younger. I think it was something about those white hooker boots.


7. If Chesney starts laughing, I'm soon to follow even if I have no idea why she's laughing. Her laugh is contagious and spirit filling.


8. I'm a sleep walker.


9. I'm a damn fine parallel parker and backer upper.


10. I wonder how many people know what a sugar tit is?

Love.Plain and simple.

Having babies is easy. Being a PARENT is work. And I take my job very seriously. It's something I don't have to question, I don't need reassurance, I don't even need a pat on the back. I KNOW I'm a good mom. My children KNOW that I am there for them in all manners. They KNOW I am on their side, I will protect them, I will teach them, I will LOVE them. Here's where I'm trying to go with this. Ches and Miranda got grounded yesterday. I'm not going to say why, it's personal for them and I respect that they are embarrassed by it so I won't share the "why"... I was just about done with the "lecture" part of their punishment and told them this, "I am very proud of you both. You're both very kind, sweet, and loving girls and I love you both more everyday." Chesney says..."How could you?" "We (insert their actions here), how could you still be proud of us and love us so much?" To which I say, "My love can never be taken away. Even on the days when my patience is tried and I have been disappointed, the times when I'm so frustrated that I want to pull my hair out, I will love you forever. And then some." "I'm proud that you are embarrassed, it shows humility. I'm proud that you are sorry, it shows accountability." For a million reasons more I love my kids. A Mother's love for her children knows no bounds. It's stronger than steel. It's forever. It's UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.

Now back to the babies being easy thing. I'm not saying that BABIES themselves are easy. That's a lot of work. A LOT. That is a difficult job. I've been there done that. I don't want it to seem like I'm saying the parents of babies don't have a clue what their in for. Quite the opposite. I'm just saying, looking back on the "baby days" ahhhh, sweet memories! Hold on tight to the moments that they look at you with sleepy eyes, the baby speak that only mom and dad understand, the soft smell of their skin...this list could go on forever. Time flies, hold tight and teach them, show them, give them all the love you can every moment that you can.

I'm such a sap today. Not sure if this post will make any sense or if it will just seem like I'm rambling. I just wanted to write this... something... down. Just something to say that being a parent is hard work. But it's the single most exhilerating, gratifying, heart racing, jump for joy thing I have ever or will ever do. And for whatever comes next, bring it on. I've got this whole being a mom thing down. I'm loving every minute of it. Unconditionally.