Randomosity

This is going to be random. Enjoy.

1. Snow storm last Friday...today, windy and warm. If I hear one more person say, "Oh, that's Kansas for ya" "stick around a minute and the weather will change" I may scream.

B. My neck.

2. I really hate it that I bought a new lotion that smelled great in the bottle but ended up smelling kinda like a rotten plant on my skin.

D. My BDay is next month and I'll be 35. 35. 35. Has a nice ring to it.

3. This little cottage of a house is really growing on me. I can't wait to do some planting and mowing and enjoying the big back yard.

F. There really isn't anything good on tv. Well, I do like the "MilkaWhat" commercial.

4. I wonder if Ches knows that I still wake up and check on her while she's sleeping and kiss her forehead and breath in her smell?

H. I'm overweight. I can't even say it's a fat and happy weight. It's more along the lines of I love food and dislike working out, fat.

5. I need a new mattress. Mine is old and sinks in the middle and may be the reason I'm such a cranky bitch in the mornings.

J. I'm a mess. But I'm HIS mess and everything will be ok.

6. I think I have my mothers hands. Don't know how I feel about that.

L. Dallas is the funniest kid I know. His sense of humor is deadpan and I love it and him. His giggle warms me. :)

7. A lady I work with is moving to North Carolina. She's kinda cranky(it's a part of her charm) but she's my favorite and feeds me her leftovers for lunch and hugs me. I'm gonna miss her.

N. I've noticed that I'm not talking as loudly as I used to. That feels nice.

8. No clue where my brain is lately. My hands are shaky and I've been misspelling words. Um yeah, that's really bothersome.

P. Ever drive by a house and wonder what's going on behind closed doors?

This is why...

I haven't been blogging much. Ok, hardly at all. I feel a kind of pressure to be ON when I blog. I want to entertain whomever is reading my blog. I feel like in some ways I need to be as good as my fellow bloggers and that my blog should be pretty and full of life and pics and antidotes of life. But here's the deal, I don't always feel ON and as a matter of fact when I'm alone and quiet THAT is when I don't feel any pressure to be anything or anyone other than just me. So with no apologies, I will allow myself to just BE. To just relax and not worry about being pretty or funny or lively or profound. I'm just going to wing it...hell, I'm too old to be worrying about such silly things for crying out loud. Pics may be posted, or may not. The funny story about what Dallas said the other day may be kept in my noggin. The sweet moments that Ches and I have talking may or may not make it to public knowledge. And the thoughts I have about family, marriage, friends and all things random may be blurted and blogged at a time when I can flail my arms about and tell you in person. But to all of you that have those pretty blogs and such, please don't take it that I'm goofing on you, I'm not at all! Please keep it up if you see fit. I love LOVE going to your blog and reading and seeing what you and yours are up to. I just have to throttle my worried lil brain back to a comfort zone. I know it's in there somewhere.